#SOL18 Day 13 Happiness
In the movie Trolls, Poppy tells the Bergens that happiness isn't something that you get externally- it comes from within. You find it inside yourself.
Growing up, I wanted everyone to be happy. I hated when there was any discord. If my parents were arguing, I would speak to each separately to get them to see the other person's perspective or to make some concessions.
Isn't it the ultimate irony, then, that I find myself in a situation where no matter what I do, there is a person in my life who is never happy with me. No explaining, cajoling, reasoning bends this person.
It's a painful place to be, to have a person deeply rooted in your life, finding you to be so displeasing in every way you wish to be pleasing.
When I was younger, I read a book called If Life is a Game, These are the Rules by Cherie Carter Scott. The idea is that life will keep presenting you with the same lessons over and over until you learn what you are supposed to learn. So perhaps my lesson is to truly understand that I cannot force anyone to be happy or, more so, happy with me. I can follow my moral code and live life the way I believe it should be lived. I can do my best to do no harm. But how others see me or if they like me or love me isn't really in my control.
It's a hard lesson to learn.